How are you all doing?
So I wrote a blog post on Tuesday, I pulled all of my emotions out of my chest, through my fingers and into the keys of my iPad keyboard in the hopes that it would remove this vast void of transparency that I’ve been engulfed by the past few weeks. I was ready to finalise and post it when something made me stop. It told me to reconsider putting out so much sadness and insecurity into the world, so I went to bed instead.
Today I woke up feeling the exact same transparency but I just can’t bring myself to talk about it anymore. I’d much rather get through this by writing something meaningful and uplifting, than something to tear open the emotional flood gates. So instead I’m writing today to make a promise to you all. A promise that I wont give up.
At nineteen, full of life, love and rebellion I went to a friend and had a tattoo on a black leather sofa. The sofa was covered in dog hair, the tattooist was covered in terrible tattoos and my wrist is forever scarred with the words ‘Nunquam Redono” which in Latin (hopefully) translates to ‘Never Give Up’ (Ironic, I know but Carpe Diem seemed too mainstream, please don’t judge my teenage years, I beg of you). For years I’ve looked at this terrible tattoo with regret and uneasiness as to its legitimacy but no more. It is now a symbol that I will become a person of note, a do-er, a yes girl.
No more apathy and self pity, its time to dig myself out of my hole, sort my life out and climb that fucking ladder straight to the top.
Let’s do this, Lovelies!!
A pumped up, fed up, fucked up but not giving up, VickiAmaya
Hey L O V E L I E S
How are you?
I wanted to talk to you today about me, my life and the reason I started my Instagram Account and Blog! This will give you a little bit of an insight into who I am and what I’m about. I’m going to be brutally honest here, this is probably going to be a long one so grab a fluffy pillow and a nice warm drink and let’s take a trip through my trials and tribulations!
I like to believe that I’m the first person my friends would think of if they needed to ask for help. I feel that I’m a very loving and compassionate person. I put my heart and soul into everything that I do. I offer out as much support and empathy as my little body can possibly give. However, in May 2012, I was 22 and had recently split up with a long term partner. I was about to be made homeless again, I was jobless and I was in around £1000.00 worth of debt. I had distanced myself from almost every friend I had. I felt alone and worthless. I couldn’t see a way of resolving or healing the pain I had been carrying around with me so I swallowed a variety of over 100 painkilling and antibiotic tablets in a desperate attempt to end my life…
– How are you?
As you may or may not be aware, I turned 27 today (13th December) and I feel like I have already lived quite a thrilling life filled with experience – so, for today, I thought that I would share some of my wisdom with you all to hopefully aid you in your day to day!
No° 1. You will never ever feel your age
You won’t wake up one warm and sunny morning, stretch out all of your limbs, pull the sheets away and feel like a twenty something year old – you just won’t – and it won’t be any different at 30,40 or 50 either.
‘Age’ in general isn’t something that we naturally feel; In fact all time is (calculatively speaking) just a man-made way to keep track of the days, nights, hours, weeks, months and years.
I always find myself asking the question “Would a 20-Something year old do or say this?”. To give you an example, I cannot count the times that I have picked up my cat and made him dance to a song or pushed him into my partners face and voiced him saying “You talkin’ shit?”.
HOW ARE YOU?
I wanted to write something helpful for you all today. Here is a little post about the unwritten rules of Instagram. Please use this post a tiny guide to the general ins and outs.
I know, my following is small but it’s also so loyal and wonderful! The people that comment leave genuine messages, the people that like my pictures like almost every picture I post and I have made many friends with a lot of you already! (please feel free to send me a message if you want to get chatting)
No° One | LIKE BACK & LIKE UNCONDITIONALLY!
This should be in the terms and conditions. In fact, I shouldn’t even need to mention it, but I feel it’s a must if we’re going to do this. When a person likes one of your pictures, like one of theirs! Hell, like as many as you want! Follow them, send them a comment, watch their story! Someone took the time out of their busy life to press HEART on something you created. Be polite, courteous and at least return the favour.
Like photo’s that please you visually, someone is posting them for that exact reason so don’t be a sourpuss. It also makes you look really active, which is key to gaining a wonderful following.